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04
Jun 2011
the 4th.
It’s been another month. Five months ago we said goodbye to our sweet baby Paxon Ray. The hurt and pain is still so deep. My pillow is often wet from tears. I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to stop the tears when I think of him or talk about him. Most of the memories we have of him were wrapped in anxiety as we prepared for his arrival, and breaking hearts as we watched our boy suffer. Not only do we miss him, but we hate all that he had to go through in his 11 days here.
No tubes. No needles. No monitors. No mean doctors. No blood draws. Nothing…but eternal peace. Laughter. God’s presence. Angels. Light. Heaven…the place where he is, and the place I long to be.
Two incredibly sweet friends, Nina and Beth came together and made this for us. Paxon’s name, with the lyrics to the song Kristie Braselton wrote in honor of his life. We will treasure this forever.
Paxon Ray (click to open in Windows Media Player)
Paxon Ray
We gazed at you in black and white
We prayed for you night after night
Paxon Ray
Those tiny hands and tiny heart
We fought for you right from the start
Paxon Ray
Only Jesus knew how long we’d have with you
So we treasured every moment you were here
Sweet Paxon Ray, with us just eleven days
How we wish you could have stayed
Sweet Paxon Ray, we will hold you once again
One wonderful Day, sweet Paxon Ray
Oh the joy the day you came
You were so small and yet so brave
Our Paxon Ray
Your fragile fingers gripped us tight
You wouldn’t go without a fight
Paxon Ray
We know that now our Father has healed your heart for you
And one day he’ll make our broken hearts whole too
We weren’t finished loving you
Our little boy, you will always be
No, we weren’t finished loving you
So we’ll love you into eternity
We are so thankful for everyone’s love for our family, and our sweet, Paxon. We thank you for carrying on his legacy. We never want him to be forgotten.
Our beautiful boy, you will always be a part of our family.
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Oh Rach, I wish I was giving you a big hug right now. I am sad that your heart has to ache. Paxon will never be forgotten. Just the other night I was praying for your family and asked God to give Paxon extra squeezes from us. Please know that the prayers haven’t stopped! Your love for him will never fade and he will always have a special place in your family. Love you friend.
Oh that is so beautiful…how special to have that. You never have to worry about Paxon being forgotten…he will be remembered by so many and impacted so many lives in his 11 days. Miss you.
the picture you paint of Paxon in Heaven sounds just amazing. He will always be part of your family.
It was only my idea, Beth is the one that created this beautiful memory for you, and she did a fantastic job, just like I knew she would. Paxon will never be forgotten. We all carry him in our hearts. I hope that you will look upon this and know that he is very much alive in the hearts of the people who prayed for him before his birth, after his birth and pray for your family still. Love to you my friend!
I thought about you and prayed for peace for you today, friend. thank you for sharing your heart…it’s beautiful! 🙂
Nope, we will never forget. McKenzie still prays for Paxon every single prayer she utters through out the day, we follow her prayers up with our prayers for Paxon’s mommy and daddy. Thanking God that Paxon is just so amazingly perfect, but praying as we live in such an imperfect sad place…waiting. Love you friend.
What a treasure from Beth & Kristie. They perfectly capture the cries of our heart for Paxon and for your family. Sweet Pax will always be remembered. He will forever be missed. He will always be loved. His legacy will impact far beyond our wildest dreams.
I read this the other day & thought of you, ‘I will have sympathy as long as you have grief.’ Love you.
What a beautiful keepsake and reminder of sweet little Paxon. Praying for you guys. Love you!
Sweet Paxon Ray…that’s how he will always be remembered. What an absolutely precious and beautiful gift. Friend, my heart just hurts for your acheing heart. Lifting you up before our Father, dear Rachel. Love you so so much…
Wish there was a way to take your pain away…Just know we love you&are always thinking of you-Hugs